a ramble of sorts...but got to get it out

What I used to hold on to....or black and white ideas that I had of people or the world...are no longer a fit for me. Some people would even call this a crisis of faith. I've chosen to call it a time of learning or evanescence.

It can be quite a scary time. like being shoved into deep water when you don't know how to swim or like moving to a new place and having to start all over again without a map or garmin.


When this happens...things change. You start to see the world with new eyes. Things you wouldn't have taken notice of before...you start to take notice of. People you wouldn't have befriended...you start to make friends with. You realize the things you thought made you happy were really a substitute for the peace that can only be found by going inward.

This can also be a sad time. People you think you can count on...don't quite understand only because it's scary for them too. When this happens I try to reassure them that even though everything changes...one thing remains the same...LOVE and my love for them.

There will always be diversity...but I try these days to focus on the things that unite us. I want to be able to see the best in people no matter what our differences are. I want to give this agree to disagree way of looking at things a real go and see if it really rings true. I want to know that unconditional love is not a fiction...but something tangible.

I want to hear that I'm the kind of friend that accepts people for who they are and where they are at...and never to hear again "I'm sorry I don't meet up to your expectations of who you thought I should be" and yes...I have had someone say this to me before.

enough for now...