change

I've often said that change is good. But in this case it's not.

How can it be that you can live with someone for 24 years and not realize that you have been trying to make them into something they don't want to be made into?? I know that I hate it when someone tries to do this to me.

It's amazing to me that I have been blind to this. I could really beat myself up..but instead...I'm going to go deep inside and see what this is trying to teach me.

The miracle (thank you God for miracles) in all of this is that the person I was doing this to has a forgiving heart. In all of my humanness...my weakness...my ugliness...my intolerance (believe me when I tell you...he's seen it all) He still wants to be a part of my crazy...ever-changing...roller coaster ride of a life...dumbfounds me to say the least.

Let's just hope that my craziness ends here.