Friday, October 30, 2009

Happy Halloween!!


The picture speaks for itself...sorry K we couldn't resist...LOL!!! (We took the costume off pretty quick she didn't like it much : )

Thursday, October 15, 2009

U2

U2 came to H-town last night and yes...I was there!!!

To say it was amazing...doesn't even come close.

I love these guys (Bono, The Edge, Larry and Adam). Not only are they kick ass musicians...but great humanitarians as well. They are totally involved in making our world a better place (the (red) campaign and One.org) just to name a few...but the list goes on.

So yes...I can scratch that one off my list and then totally die happy : )

thanx sweetie for taking me...even though this is my fav band...you are too good to me <3

Monday, October 12, 2009

rockin out!!!


this past saturday night was a special night indeed...it was the return of rockerbox (my hubbie's band).

It's been a year and a half since they last played out. It was awesome and fun...because listening to live music is one of my most favoritest things to do!!

I sincerely hope...I don't have to wait another year and a half!!!

Oh yes...my beautiful Morgan just turned 24 years young...Happy Birthday beautiful girl...I love you.

trust me on this one...it only gets better <3

Thursday, October 1, 2009

knock knock...

knock knock!!

who's there??

interrupting cow.

interrupting cow whMOOOOOOOOO!!!!!

Saturday, September 26, 2009

coffee

coffee is amazing.

it puts a smile on my face

from the warm cup in my hand-to the delicious taste.

I love it in the morning and in the afternoon

and in the evening...sitting on the ground staring at the moon.

*a little didy about my love of coffee

Thursday, September 17, 2009

Mom

for the past week...I've had the awesome gift of having my Mom all to myself.

It's been great.

What do you do...when your Mom and Dad are cooler than you are??

Nothing...just stand back in amazement and wonder.

I only hope that...If I get to be in my seventies...I can muster up just a little of the coolness they possess.

It's been such a great week. It's been my pleasure to wait on my Mom hand and foot after her surgery. She'll only let me spoil her a little...which kills me...cause I just love to spoil...I wish there was a class called "the art of spoiling" cause I would so be there!!!

Anyway...I'm so blessed to still have my Mom and Dad. So...just a reminder...hug your Mom and Dad while you still can. I know that's what I'm about to do <3 (I love hugging too...but that's another post)

Saturday, September 12, 2009

enchanted

Get out of my head.

My dreams are off limits, too.

I can feel it when you think of me,
It really is quite cruel.

To be in your presence is not an option,
of this I can be sure.

There is no end to the spell you've cast,
because your love is pure.

A master in the Art of Love and War,
a plan you will devise.

Your tactics are pure genius,
there is no place to hide.

My strongest magic fails,
against this enchantment that you weave.

I'll build a wall around my heart,
and pray that you will leave.

*words have power...thoughts are energy...choose wisely

(inspiration for this poem came from "the power of love" and after watching the movie "twilight")

Wednesday, September 9, 2009

the ride

You didn't ask to be here,
but here you are.

Looking for acceptance,
you steal a car.

Asking for directions, not an option.

People can't be trusted,
most of all they're just disgusted.

Forget about making a call,
Mom and Dad are no help at all.

The truth is...
you are on your own.

People tell me that I'm wasting my time,
but they don't see...you.

I see the child that wants to be loved,
that has grown up alone.

I want you to know that I see your pain,
I'm here to listen if you care to explain.

Even if our time together is brief,
I see you...the child disguised as a thief.

*for B.

Monday, September 7, 2009

reflection

One of my co-workers asked me a question the other day (wanting to get a student's thought process going) the question was, "what did you dream of being when you grew up?" That was easy for me. The only thing I ever wanted to be was a writer/poet. I kept a diary... as a kid.

I still remember the day...I stopped writing in my diary. Maybe I'll talk about this in a future post...but not quite ready to tackle that today...because I've started writing again...and I don't want to block this inspiration/intuition that keeps me awake at night.

So with that said...this blog and the journals that have gone unused and about to be sought for...I dedicate the following entries.

My hope is that they bring you peace, healing and yes love.

the Sojourner






Where will I land??

maybe in the sand

Or in the grass...by a lake.

I've never seen the ocean or a mountain.

I'll make a wish while I wait.

This part of my journey...about to end.

The winds of change are slowing down

Even as I'm at her mercy...she places me gently on the ground.

It feels strange...my beauty somewhat re-arranged,

no longer part of my tree.

I'll find comfort in the knowing,

wherever I land...

I'm forever me.



*inspired by experience and the beauty of "the trail"

Wednesday, September 2, 2009

Happy Birthday <3

for my babe...

Did you know that I get lost in your eyes of blue??

or that I watch you while you sleep.

or how about your laugh lines that make me weak
in the knees...I love that you sneeze in threes...and let's not forget...you make beautiful babies <3

I long for your bear hugs that make me feel safe...your whisker stubble that tickles my face.

with you I never have to pretend...to be something other than who I am.

I hope that you know...I love being your wife...and that you are the love of my life.

Wednesday, August 12, 2009

vaca...







just got back from Colorado. It was awesome...beautiful...peaceful and cool...literally.

It was truly heaven on earth. I could totally live there...if I could afford it.

I decided that I need to see some of the united states. We decided on Colorado cause neither of us had ever been there...except for the denver airport that is.

I'm so glad that we went. I can't wait to see where we end up next. especially if I get to pick it : )

Thursday, July 30, 2009

back

just got back from a visit that was totally over due. Went to visit my Sister. It was lovely. She spoiled me rotten as she always has. When ever I need to be lifted up that's where I go. She's an amazing Mom...daughter...sister...wife and yes, most of all friend.

I joke that she's the one I would call if I ever needed to bury a body with no questions asked. You know...she's just got my back. I have been blessed with two amazing daughters and two amazing sisters...I guess that some place in my crazy life...I must have done at least one thing right.

While on this visit...she tried several times to take me to the movies...shopping...or anything else my heart desired...but to no avail...I asked her if we could just visit. And that's what we did.

It was so cool. Getting up up early...going to bed late...just talking and listening. Before I knew it...it was time to come home. I'm so glad that I went...I could have easily talked myself out of going...but the heart wants what the heart wants...and I for one am glad that I listened this time.

I truly hope you know how amazing you are...thank you for the gift of being my Sister.

Friday, July 10, 2009

light and dark

The word for the day is Dark Matter.

I plan on doing a lot more reading on this. Amazing. I love looking at the sky at night especially the stars. I know that this is only a theory...but I love this kind of stuff. I've never thought about what could be in the darkness around the stars. So very cool.

Columbia Encyclopedia: dark matter Top
dark matter, material that is believed to make up (along with dark energy) more than 90% of the mass of the universe but is not readily visible because it neither emits nor reflects electromagnetic radiation, such as light or radio signals. Its existence would explain gravitational anomalies seen in the motion and distribution of galaxies. Dark matter can be detected only indirectly, e.g., through the bending of light rays from distant stars by its gravity.

Dark matter may consist of dust, planets, intergalactic gas formed of ordinary matter, or of MACHOs [Massive Astrophysical Compact Halo Objects], nonluminous bodies such as burned-out stars, black holes, and brown dwarfs; these are the so-called hot dark matter and would be dispersed uniformly throughout the universe. The discovery in 2001 of a large concentration of white dwarf stars in the halo surrounding the Milky Way indicates that these burned-out stars could represent as much as a third of the dark matter in the universe.

Other theories hold that it is made of elementary particles that played a key role in the formation of the universe, possibly the low-mass neutrino or theoretical particles called axions and WIMPs [Weakly Interacting Massive Particles]; these are the so-called cold dark matter and would be found in clumps throughout the universe. In 1996 a Japanese team at the Univ. of Tokyo led by Yasushi Ikebe reported on dark-matter clumping in the galactic cluster Fornax. Clumps were found in two distinct regions: around a massive galaxy in the center of the cluster and, in larger amounts, around the entire cluster. This suggests that the slower, cold dark matter might form the smaller clumps associated with the galaxy while the faster, hot dark matter might form the larger clumps associated with the galactic cluster.

Computer simulations of the formation of the universe favored the cold dark matter but tended to predict the formation of too many dwarf galaxies when compared to the observed universe. This led to the postulation of warm dark matter, which resolved the simulation problems. Unlike cold dark matter, which has mass but virtually no velocity or temperature, or hot dark matter, which has mass and is highly energetic, warm dark matter has mass and a low temperature corresponding to an extremely low velocity.

See also interstellar matter.

Bibliography

See R. Morris, Cosmic Questions: Galactic Halos, Cold Dark Matter and the End of Time (1995); T. Van Flandern, Dark Matter, Missing Planets, and New Comets (2d ed. 1998); M. Hawkins, Hunting Down the Universe: The Missing Mass, Primordial Black Holes and Other Dark Matters (1999).


Thursday, July 9, 2009

unrest

I wonder if there's a name for it, a word...for the time you are laying in bed right before you fall asleep.

For me it can be a short time or a really long time. I really don't like this time lately. It's filled with things that are less than peaceful. I start thinking about stuff like...animal cruelty...people that are sick...war and suffering. Praying isn't enough.

I talked about this at my book club the other day. One of my friends asked me if I journaled. I said that I used to do it everyday...but for some reason stopped. She said it might help if I put these thoughts down and literally looked at them. Then when I finished looking at them, I could delete it if blogging on my computer or burn it...if on paper. She said it really helps with the negativity in her life.

So...I'm gonna give it a try.

The written word is a beautiful thing and now apparently therapeutic as well.

We'll see.

Friday, July 3, 2009

flying

San Marcos Texas is a beautiful place. It's a cozy town with beautiful hills and an amazing river running through it. I totally get why my daughters wanted to go to school here. I'm wondering...why I haven't made the move yet myself.

As a parent you always want your kids to do better than you did. It looks like they are off to a pretty good start. I'm so glad that they decided to give the "away from home college" experience a try. It was hard at first. I was always wondering if they were ok...had enough to eat...homesick...or all the other things a parent thinks about. And sometimes they were. But...it's just like when the momma bird pushes her baby out of the nest...scary at first...but flying must be an amazing thing.

Yesterday...I got to visit my first born (I don't like to use the word older...cause she's anything but) who has decided at the moment to make San Marcos her new home. She has landed her first "live by herself" apt. To say that it's cute...would be an understatement. It's got to be the coolest...coziest place I've ever seen. She's so proud of it. We helped her get settled and I got the awesome gift of taking her to get some of the things she needed to make it a bit more homie. It was a great time...a proud moment...another happy place.

She's flying.

Thursday, June 25, 2009

Happy Birthday!!!

Happy Birthday Alex...I love you...I can't wait to see what the next 19 years brings...happiness and joy for sure : )

you're a precious girl <3

Monday, June 22, 2009

shots of the day






past time of the moment...

Friday, June 19, 2009

the trail


I love the trail by my house. It allows me to do one of my fave things which is walking. Getting to take in nature and getting a workout...priceless.

On a good day...I remember to take my camera...this was one of them.

Wednesday, June 17, 2009

a ramble of sorts...but got to get it out

What I used to hold on to....or black and white ideas that I had of people or the world...are no longer a fit for me. Some people would even call this a crisis of faith. I've chosen to call it a time of learning or evanescence.

It can be quite a scary time. like being shoved into deep water when you don't know how to swim or like moving to a new place and having to start all over again without a map or garmin.


When this happens...things change. You start to see the world with new eyes. Things you wouldn't have taken notice of before...you start to take notice of. People you wouldn't have befriended...you start to make friends with. You realize the things you thought made you happy were really a substitute for the peace that can only be found by going inward.

This can also be a sad time. People you think you can count on...don't quite understand only because it's scary for them too. When this happens I try to reassure them that even though everything changes...one thing remains the same...LOVE and my love for them.

There will always be diversity...but I try these days to focus on the things that unite us. I want to be able to see the best in people no matter what our differences are. I want to give this agree to disagree way of looking at things a real go and see if it really rings true. I want to know that unconditional love is not a fiction...but something tangible.

I want to hear that I'm the kind of friend that accepts people for who they are and where they are at...and never to hear again "I'm sorry I don't meet up to your expectations of who you thought I should be" and yes...I have had someone say this to me before.

enough for now...

Thursday, June 11, 2009

watermelon rox!!!

I could really get used to this 24/7 chillaxin.

Yes...this would be the summer vaca lifestyle of teachers and their fortunate assistants (aka me) that occurs usually in the months of June and August. what can I say...it's a ok.

I still get up early...creature of habit or internal clock...no matter...still can't sleep late, but that's ok cause there are so many things to do and a cat nap is one of them : )

Let's start with the "take my time" cup of coffee first thing. It's such a simple pleasure but oh so cool...and then there's the summer reading list. So many books...so little time. Oh...but how about this one...having lunch with friends that you haven't seen for a while and totally catching up!!! Or staying up late and watching movies with your fav people because...yes once again... you can.

How about the summer fruits...strawberries...blackberries and then there's watermelon...which just plain rox!!!

All these are great but none compares to hangin with my sweetie...whether it be lunch...going to our trail to walk or run or hanging in the pool...it's all good.

And If a trip falls into place...then it's the icing of this delicious cake called summer!!!!

I won't waste a minute...cause this is the calm before the storm called August.

Tuesday, May 26, 2009

worry

just wondering...Is it a bad thing not to worry??

Does that mean that you are totally taking things for granted...or that you have amazing faith...or that you know that some times worry causes severe migraine headaches (don't miss those).

Seems to me that I remember my friend JC saying something about worry.

anyway...long story short...My better half was without a job for a short amount of time...in truth we really didn't know what was going to happen. I can honestly say that I wasn't worried.

Ignorance or a knowing that...there was nothing I could do about it any way??

But...we were telling this story to some friends the other night...and I said "that I wasn't worried". My better half then when on to say "Yeah but...You don't worry about anything" then my friends let him know that they "were worried for him" So there you have it.

Is concern the same thing as worry?? I was concerned...dang it!!!

who knows...but I can say this... the last thing I want to be is insensitive.

Wednesday, May 20, 2009

awesome



You rock and You're so welcome!!!

Sunday, May 10, 2009

Well Done!!!

To say that we are proud would be an understatement. We are always proud of our girls...but I must say well done and you are awesome.

This will be you once again next Saturday...and trust me...there will not be a dry eye to be found.
congrats...we love you!!!

Sunday, May 3, 2009

nola jazz fest 2009

just got back from jazz fest. it was an amazing time...but pics speak louder that words...so here you go!!! thanx babe for an amazing time...I love you







Wednesday, April 22, 2009

cool blog...

check this out

http://1000awesomethings.com/

Wednesday, April 15, 2009

movies...

I don't watch much TV anymore...cause I love movies. Just about as much as books and coffee...it's actually a 3 way tie...but then there's my phone...but that's another post all together. this is one of my fave little indie flicks. I was reading one of my fave blogs "The sound of diesel musing" one day and he was giving a review of this movie. It's just as awesome as he said it was. So put it on your list for movies to watch before you die.

Love...

this would be "once"

Monday, April 13, 2009

<3 again...

this would be Landon Pigg. I love this song. It's about falling in love in a coffee shop...does not get better than that!!! Yes I know...I'm such a girl...enjoy...

Sunday, April 12, 2009

<3

I love this artist. This would be Ingrid Michaelson. Give her a listen. Lyrics...once again...oh and the voice...stellar.

For my sweetie...for loving me just "The way I am"

Saturday, April 11, 2009

I so get it...it's a cat thing

change

I've often said that change is good. But in this case it's not.

How can it be that you can live with someone for 24 years and not realize that you have been trying to make them into something they don't want to be made into?? I know that I hate it when someone tries to do this to me.

It's amazing to me that I have been blind to this. I could really beat myself up..but instead...I'm going to go deep inside and see what this is trying to teach me.

The miracle (thank you God for miracles) in all of this is that the person I was doing this to has a forgiving heart. In all of my humanness...my weakness...my ugliness...my intolerance (believe me when I tell you...he's seen it all) He still wants to be a part of my crazy...ever-changing...roller coaster ride of a life...dumbfounds me to say the least.

Let's just hope that my craziness ends here.

Sunday, April 5, 2009

K


Why oh why...did it take me so long to adopt a friend?? I could give all kinds of excuses...but I would have to say it's because I didn't want to rock the boat...but not rocking the boat can lead to resentment.

Anyway...I'm so glad that the boat got rocked!!! And that I have my K. I know that I've said this before...but she's a joy!!! Let me tell you why.

When I come home at the end of the day...it doesn't matter where in the house she is...she runs to greet me @ the door.

I was really sick one day...she never left me.

She senses when I'm in a bad mood or sad...when this happens...she waits by feet until I pick her up and then she nuzzels my neck.

But the number one reason is...I think she came to me is...she knew that I needed an example of what unconditional love really is. One of my constant prayers is to be shown how to love this way. Since I don't have it in me by myself...and since I'm a visual learner...she found me. I am so the better for it.

I promise to always take care of you and try to follow your example of loving.

Sunday, March 29, 2009

soft on my ears...

I just got home from visiting my Mom and Dad. It was a beautiful drive...the blue bonnets and indian paintbrushes were amazing!!! I'm so glad that you are doing better Mom...I love you <3

I also was listening to a cd. The cd is poetry by Hafiz read by Daniel Ladinsky.
Hafiz is a sufi poet who was crazy, mad, passionately in love with God. It's some of the most beautiful poetry I have ever heard.

Here's a little taste...I hope it takes you there.


Saints Bowing in the Mountains

Do you know how beautiful you are?

I think not, my dear.

For as you talk of God,

I see great parades with wildly colorful bands

Streaming from your mind and heart,

Carrying wonderful and secret messages

To every corner of this world.

I see saints bowing in the mountains

Hundreds of miles away

To the wonder of sounds

That break into light

From your most common words.

Speak to me of your mother,

Your cousins and your friends.

Tell me of squirrels and birds you know.

Awaken your legion of nightingales—

Let them soar wild and free in the sky.

And begin to sing to God.

Let’s all begin to sing to God!

Do you know how beautiful you are?

I think not, my dear,

Yet Hafiz

Could set you upon a Stage

And worship you forever!

--Hafiz

Saturday, March 28, 2009

being loved...

Being loved is the most awesome thing. I was watching the movie "the secret life of bees" the other day. There's a line in the movie...that said "every little thing wants to be loved" and I totally agree.

There are many times that I have fallen short as a parent...but no matter how bad the situation got...I always found a way...to let my daughters know that they were loved. Because of this...I have peace in knowing that they will do the same thing.

Someone once told me that "the more love you give...the more you get in return" I have also found this to be true. So on a good day...I try to love really well...so that when I'm having a bad day...maybe...it will find me. Sometimes it comes in a hug from a friend or my family...or a smile...a cuddle from my cat...the sunrise or sunset...the moon and stars...flowers in a field...poetry...music...or a letter.

I was watching tv the other night...the discussion was very heated. They were debating whether or not Satan or the devil really exists. People were really divided on this and they were going to great lengths to get their points across. One thing I noticed in all of it...was the absence of love. They were so busy trying to get their point across that they failed to listen to what the other person was saying. I myself got nothing from the discussion. So if there was someone out there that was really looking for the answer to the question "Does Satan or the Devil really exist??" I would have to say they probably went to bed that night thinking "wow...I'm more confused then I was to start with".

is there a Devil or Satan or Hell...I would have to say yes...I do believe it. Not because I believe that the Devil or Satan is a real entity or that I believe that Hell is a real destination...but because some people live a Hell on earth. I work with teenagers who don't know they are loved....I hear about all the things that happen to them at home...I have friends who have aborted their babies...because they thought they would be cast out...I have seen homeless 2 year olds in Africa and the ravages of war...the focus on what seperates us...be it race...religion...straight...gay....man...woman....sometimes (this hurts the most) in the name of God...instead of embracing what we have in common.

What if Hell was just the absence of love?? And what if the Devil...could be me or you...if love were denied.

Friday, March 27, 2009

Fray...

the haunting word of the moment is Fray...popped up twice yesterday...once at work and then on tv as I was about to fall asleep...so...once again...I looked it up...cause didn't know what it meant...interesting

fray 1
n.
1. A scuffle; a brawl. See Synonyms at brawl.
2. A heated dispute or contest.
tr.v. frayed, fray·ing, frays Archaic
1. To alarm; frighten.
2. To drive away.

fray (ANNOYED) Show phonetics
verb [I]
If your temper frays or your nerves fray, you gradually become upset or annoyed:
Tempers frayed as thousands of motorists began the Christmas holiday with long waits in traffic jams.

Definition

fray:

to start to become less effective or successful:
Without the unifying forces of the army and the monarchy, it seems, the nation would begin to fray at the edges.

Monday, March 23, 2009

awwww....again!!!

this is why I adore animals!!!

Saturday, March 21, 2009

???

can you feel when someone is thinking about you??

When you dream about someone...are they dreaming about you at the same time??

Is Love a choice...or does it just happen?? And if it just happens...what gives us the right to try and define it??

Why can't we focus on the things we have in common instead of the things that make us different??

What do kids think when they hear us say "because I said so" and how would they respond to it...if they knew they wouldn't get in trouble??

If you got amnesia...and forgot your belief system?? would God still love you??

What do you miss most about being a kid??

Just wondering...

Tuesday, March 17, 2009

you bet I love myself...

ok...you can prob tell...that I 'm on spring break...cause I have a lot of time on my hands...so what...this blog is a place for me to come when I have something to say...so since i'm on spring break and I have a little more time on my hands...well...I think you get the picture...anyhoo

I have a firing thought about a conversation I had with someone the other day...It went a little something like this...

"you sure do have a lot of pictures of yourself"

Me..."and??"

"you must love yourself"

Me..."you're right...I do."

silence...

Me..."If I didn't love myself first...I wouldn't be able to love anyone else"

so there you have it...I do love myself...so therefore...I love you too : )

my heros!!!!

Sunday, March 15, 2009

be still...

ssshhhh....be still...listen...can you feel it?? open your eyes can you see it?? beautiful...

Saturday, March 14, 2009

Divine Love

I consider myself a seeker...someone who has started to seek the Divine (God, higher power) in everyone...everything and everywhere.

This is a very restful and peaceful stop in my spiritual journey. The only time I get tired is when someone asks me "what do you believe?". I used to try and answer this question...but...come to find out...I still don't know yet...because I'm still seeking...and will be until I finish with this life.

But...once in a while I get a glimmer of the Divine and it's glorious...because I've been promised that if I seek...I will find...seeking with the eyes of a child.

so...because I love poetry and because I'm a girl (we love this stuff)this poem speaks to me...of Divine Love.

'We Keep Each Other Happy' from the sufi mystic and poet Hafiz

Like two lovers who have become lost In a winter blizzard,

And find a
cozy empty hut In the forest,

I now huddle everywhere with the
Friend.

God and I have built an immense fire Together.

We keep each
other happy And warm
.

Thursday, March 12, 2009

alex turned me on to picnik...check it out @ picnik.com
I love it!!! K. is such a diva!!!

Wednesday, March 11, 2009

can't wait!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

can't wait...it's definitely a date...7/17/09!!!! IMAX 4 SURE!!!

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

nothing stays the same...

I just sent an email to one of the most amazing people I know. I was telling her the truth is this

"nothing stays the same...oh if it only could!!!"

I was reminded of the song "Stop this train" from the same album that I talked about earlier "Continuum" by John Mayer. If you don't have this CD...get it...you at least need to listen to this song.

I'm going to post the lyrics for you.

love...

Stop this train...by John Mayer

No, I'm not colorblind
I know the world is black and white
Try to keep an open mind
But I just can't sleep on this tonight

Stop this train
I wanna get off
And go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
But honestly, won't someone stop this train?

Don't know how else to say it
Don't want to see my parents go
One generation's length away
From fighting life out on my own

Stop this train
I wanna get off
And go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can't
But honestly, won't someone stop this train?

So scared of getting older
I'm only good at being young
So I play the numbers game
To find a way to say that life has just begun

Had a talk with my old man
Said "help me understand"
He said "turn sixty-eight
You renegotiate"

"Don't stop this train
Don't for a minute change the place you're in
And don't think I couldn't ever understand
I tried my hand
John, honestly we'll never stop this train"

Once in awhile, when it's good
It'll feel like it should
And they're all still around
And you're still safe and sound
And you don't miss a thing
Till you cry when you're driving away in the dark
Singing

Stop this train
I wanna get off
And go home again
I can't take the speed it's moving in
I know I can
Cause now I see I'll never stop this train

Sunday, March 8, 2009

why does this word keep popping up??

So...I have been reading a lot lately (I guess that's not that big a deal for those of you who know me).

But...this word keeps popping up.

I love it when I come across a word that I have no earthly idea what it means...and if it keeps popping up...I get really excited, because I believe...something or someone is trying to get my attention. I just love that kind of stuff.

The word is altruism.

I have never heard this word before...so I'm like...why does it keep popping up? So...I'm really into a book and I come across this word...well I could just keep reading and act like I know what it is...or...I can admit that I don't know everything and stop reading and look it up...so...I finally did.

All I can say is...WOW!!!

I have found a couple of definitions...I'll paste them here.

Something or someone definitely has my attention!!! Heads up!!!


Altruism
- (from Latin: alter: the other) is the deliberate pursuit of the interests or welfare of others or the public interest.

1. Loving others as oneself. 2. Behaviour that promotes the survival chances of others at a cost to ones own. 3. Self-sacrifice for the benefit of others.

Regard for others, both natural and moral; devotion to the interests of others; brotherly kindness; -- opposed to egoism or selfishness.

1 : unselfish regard for or devotion to the welfare of others 2 : behavior by an animal that is not beneficial to or may be harmful to itself but that benefits others of its species





Friday, March 6, 2009

awww!!!!

can someone please find this cat and bring her home to me!!!

Thursday, March 5, 2009



I can't decide which one I love more...my music or my books. I hope I never...ever have to choose.

One of my favorite CDs is "Continuum" by John Mayer.

This song touches me to the core. It's filled with raw emotion and the lyrics are amazing...not to mention the awesomeness of John's playing.

I'm so feelin it...enjoy : )

Wednesday, March 4, 2009

little Miss Judge

Did I mention that this blog is also a place for me to come when I need to fess up??

Well...it is!!!

I can really be the most judgmental person on the face of this earth (I know right?? I'm also the one who hates intolerance) so why then...did I almost totally write someone off...just because they seem to be a grouchy and mean old lady most of the time?? Really?? yes really.

Well...guess what happened??

I had to spend an entire day with this very person.

Man oh man was I dreading it!!! I was like (talking to myself again) "Self...see what you get for talking smack about that lady to your friends...now you have to spend the whole day with her!!! Just you and her!!! A double shot mocha (I was wishin I had one!!!) couldn't even bring a smile to this situation.

So...I dragged my feet as long as I could...my friends told me "good luck" as I was leaving and that "We will be thinking of you"...I wanted to hit them!!!

So...out of my classroom I went...up the stairs...telling myself once again that I'll just tell her that I have to get this stack of books read before my next book club meeting and that I really didn't feel like talking.

I finally get there and she looks at me...before I could tell her about my books and she says "Let's go get some comfy chairs to sit in" and I'm like...yes...sure...ok. After that...I don't remember much except...listening to how much of a music fan she is and that she likes a lot of the same music that I do. We talked and talked and time just flew. She told me that she really liked this one particular artist...but she didn't have any of his cds...she really liked one song very much. I went on to tell her that I had that CD and that I would love to burn a copy for her.

Long story short....she's way cooler than I am!!! but...I can't believe that I almost missed out on making a new friend...just because...she wasn't what I thought she should be.

"So...Self...be kind to strangers...cause you're quite strange yourself"

Monday, March 2, 2009
















Ok...I admit it...my cat is spoiled.

This is little K. (short for Kitty).

She is the best cat in the world. Thanks Little K. for finding me and making me feel loved. You have been and continue to be such a joy...I love you <3 (I don't think she wants to share)

Sunday, March 1, 2009

My happy place


When life takes a crazy turn...I can always come back to my happy place. These visuals are stored away for just an occasion. It's true...peace comes from within...

Saturday, February 28, 2009














I love this picture...for so many reasons. This blog is a place for me to come...when I need an escape. It's about... firing thoughts...daydreaming...and most importantly love and the magic that can be found in the most unlikely places. It's going to be a silly...childish... and most definitely corny at times place to come...I invite you to stay.

Thursday, February 26, 2009

grateful

I''m extremely grateful. I just wanted to see it written down...so that I could read it over and over to myself. I recently found myself wanting something that was totally out of my reach. I have decided to put it out of my mind and focus on the things that I have in my life that are amazing. And there are many. I love my life...I love my family...I love my job...I love my cat...I love my books...I love my music...I love my bedroom...which I have worked very hard to make very zen...I love seeing the divine in everyone...everything...everywhere.

So there it is...Why want something just because I can't have it??